Day 48

Finished Graduation, and sitting idle.. didn't make it to the masters.. I got stuck at the waiting list.
How dumb that could get..
He got a job.. well paid.. and happy.
Things are worsening between us due to distance. I am constantly looking for a job near his place.
But nothing seems to work out.. If this goes on..
I dunno what is gonna happen..

Day 47

Days have been going worse than ever.. 
Thesis is taking out the life out of me.. and I still dunno what to do about it..
He constantly gives things to say, and I as usual have been messing things up..

I really feel like quitting this all.. and dying..
Things don't feel or look good anymore..
Hating it all..

Day 46

He says a person like me, really can't have friends ever.
He is true. I never did, and I don't do either.

Its sad, that after 22 years of life, I have to realize, that all that I am.. is wrong..
All that I have, I did till date, has been wrong and bad too..

I feel miserable.. like never before..
And currently, i am at my wit's end..

Day 45

I am in a bad state, regarding my thesis.. whatever i thought has been scrapped off..

#feeling too miserable

Day 44

That awesome moment, when you fall in love with your boyfriend,

even when he is shouting at you 

:)

♥

Day 43

I suddenly feel like bursting myself.
I do not know what to do, really. Everything looks like a mess.
And I am entangled.
I am so hating it now..

And the only person I can talk to, doesn't wanna hear me..

Day 42

Intimacy has a certain degree... depending on how it was on your 1st time..
It normally begins with a kiss.. moving onto making out, and then sex.
And for all of us, the 1st time remains to be a memory, no matter what..

Now of course, this text of mine is inspired by something by someone I have been reading off late.
But really, its not that we discuss these moments of intimacy. we call it private..
You know, its like, what starts in the bedrooms, remains there..

Intriguing, quite enough..
Isn't it?

Day 41

i deleted my 1st blog. he doesn't want me to write.
and the very fact that it exists reminds me of my feeble state.
and the mere fact that we both are in the same profession
and the same batch, has been creating problems.

i wonder where all this is going to lead us..
struggling amidst heart breaks, boring vacation, surprisingly equipped VisualARQ..

Day 40

True to my password, i was so screwed.. not only in terms of work..

But also life.. not me directly, but yeah..

Day 39

To see myself getting ruined, day by day..
And even when I am trying to save things up.. 

Yet all my efforts go in vain..

Fighting my way..